The novel Siddhartha is
inspirational especially depicting ones attempt at self-discovery during the
time of the Buddha, a spiritual leader, referenced in the book as Gotama.
Here’s a brief summary:
The story occurs in ancient India. Siddhartha,
the protagonist, leaves his Brahmin home and his father who was no longer able
to satisfy Siddhartha’s quest for enlightenment. Along with his friend and
follower Govinda, Siddhartha joined the Samanas, who taught Siddhartha that deprivation
and giving up of all possessions lead to enlightenment. Govinda soon joins Gotama to learn his teachings,
but Siddhartha rejected Gotama’s teachings.
However, Siddhartha praised Gotama of his power of self-wisdom and
self-experience and ventures anew to find himself, to know himself, to find
Siddhartha. Siddhartha makes
acquaintance with Kamala who becomes Siddhartha’s teacher of sensuality and of
love. Through Kamala, Siddhartha also
learns business from Kamaswami, the merchant who teaches Siddhartha. He soon finds himself indulging in what he
called “childlike” people’s behavior, womanizing and gambling until one day he
plunges to self-destruction. He
ultimately gathers enough inner strength to find the early teachings he had
grown up with as Brahmin as well as an ascetic Samana and finds another chance
meeting with the enlightened ferryman Vasudeva.
Siddhartha decides to live with Vasudeva in the presence of the river
that inspires him spiritually. Some
years later, Siddhartha meets Kamala, born again Buddhist, and his son on their
way to see Gotama on his deathbed.
Tragically, Kamala dies from a venomous snakebite and Siddhartha
attempts to raise his son but realizes much as how he himself was as a young
boy, his son ran away to find his own path.
Siddhartha while listening to the river with Vasudeva realizes that time
is but an illusion and that all of his feelings, experiences, and even the
suffering and deprivation are part of something bigger which ultimately is
connected in a cycle of unity surrounded by nature. Vasudeva stated it’s his time, and that his
work is done then departed into the forest.
Towards the end of his life, Govinda travels to Siddhartha upon hearing
about a wise perhaps enlightened ferryman.
Govinda initially did not recognize for the 2nd time his childhood
friend Siddhartha. Govinda then asks the
now elderly Siddhartha to relate his wisdom.
The passage I’d like to
discuss is actually the last chapter titled Govinda where Siddhartha replies
that every true statement has an opposite one that also may be true; that
language and the concept of time people adhere to as fixed belief does not
account for the wholeness of truth. He
continues to further state the oneness and how all things are connected through
cyclic unity of nature.
Govinda said: "Still, oh Siddhartha,
you love a bit to mock people, as it seems to me. I believe in you and know
that you haven't followed a teacher. But haven't you found something by
yourself, though you've found no teachings, you still found certain thoughts,
certain insights, which are your own and which help you to live? If you would
like to tell me some of these, you would delight my heart."
Quoth Siddhartha: "I've had thoughts,
yes, and insight, again and again. Sometimes, for an hour or for an entire day,
I have felt knowledge in me, as one would feel life in one's heart. There have
been many thoughts, but it would be hard for me to convey them to you. Look, my
dear Govinda, this is one of my thoughts, which I have found: wisdom cannot be
passed on. Wisdom which a wise man tries to pass on to someone always sounds
like foolishness."
"Are you kidding?" asked
Govinda.
"I'm not kidding. I'm telling you
what I've found. Knowledge can be conveyed, but not wisdom. It can be found, it
can be lived, it is possible to be carried by it, miracles can be performed
with it, but it cannot be expressed in words and taught. This was what I, even
as a young man, sometimes suspected, what has driven me away from the teachers.
I have found a thought, Govinda, which you'll again regard as a joke or
foolishness, but which is my best thought. It says: The opposite of every truth
is just as true! That's like this: any truth can only be expressed and put into
words when it is one-sided. Everything is one-sided which can be thought with
thoughts and said with words, it's all one-sided, all just one half, all lacks
completeness, roundness, oneness. When the exalted Gotama spoke in his
teachings of the world, he had to divide it into Sansara and Nirvana, into
deception and truth, into suffering and salvation. It cannot be done
differently, there is no other way for him who wants to teach. But the world
itself, what exists around us and inside of us, is never one-sided. A person or
an act is never entirely Sansara or entirely Nirvana, a person is never
entirely holy or entirely sinful. It does really seem like this, because we are
subject to deception, as if time was something real. Time is not real, Govinda,
I have experienced this often and often again. And if time is not real, then
the gap which seems to be between the world and the eternity, between suffering
and blissfulness, between evil and good, is also a deception."
I agree with Siddhartha’s enlightenment and
wisdom he related to simply identify and love the world in its completeness –
murderer can be categorized as evil incarnate, yet the murderer may yet love,
cherish, and a benefactor to his or her children. Priests in the news, a holy man commits
adultery or child molestation – a good man at the same time a sinful man;
nothing is entirely good or bad, “entirely Sansara or entirely Nirvana”.
"This too," spoke Siddhartha,
"I do not care very much about. Let the things be illusions or not, after
all I would then also be an illusion, and thus they are always like me. This is
what makes them so dear and worthy of veneration for me: they are like me.
Therefore, I can love them. And this is now a teaching you will laugh about:
love, oh Govinda, seems to me to be the most important thing of all. To
thoroughly understand the world, to explain it, to despise it, may be the thing
great thinkers do. But I'm only interested in being able to love the world, not
to despise it, not to hate it and me, to be able to look upon it and me and all
beings with love and admiration and great respect."
"This I understand," spoke
Govinda. "But this very thing was discovered by the exalted one to be a
deception. He commands benevolence, clemency, sympathy, tolerance, but not love;
he forbade us to tie our heart in love to earthly things."
"I know it," said Siddhartha;
his smile shone golden. "I know it, Govinda. And behold, with this we are
right in the middle of the thicket of opinions, in the dispute about words. For
I cannot deny, my words of love are in a contradiction, a seeming contradiction
with Gotama's words. For this very reason, I distrust in words so much, for I
know, this contradiction is a deception. I know that I am in agreement with
Gotama. How should he not know love, he, who has discovered all elements of
human existence in their transitoriness, in their meaninglessness, and yet
loved people thus much, to use a long, laborious life only to help them, to
teach them! Even with him, even with your great teacher, I prefer the thing
over the words, place more importance on his acts and life than on his
speeches, more on the gestures of his hand than his opinions. Not in his
speech, not in his thoughts, I see his greatness, only in his actions, in his
life."
Food for your thoughts;
Govinda stated that the exalted one “commands benevolence, clemency, sympathy,
tolerance, but not love; he forbade us to tie our heart in love to earthly
things.” Permit me to be a bit
subjective; despite his acclaimed status Gotama, Buddha was born and raised as
royalty, a prince until he witnessed few deaths and questioned the cycle of
birth life and death at the age of 29. I
can’t begin to ponder what deprivation and suffrage he knew growing up as a
prince. Further, in search for answers
to his question about life and death as well as to attain his enlightenment, he
abandoned his family and his children but preached as one of his first
commandments to respect and love your parents and elders. I cannot comprehend to accept that if you
want to achieve something monumental, you cannot show or believe in empathy –
as long as you don’t preach empathy, I assume it is easy to abandon and move on
with your goals whether your goals are selfish or selfless. One more thing I want to add is that I agree
with language and words losing its meaning or its wholesomeness in translation;
there are not enough words to express certain emotions and instincts, you can
only convey.